To Tell The Truth!

Honestly I don't know what to think about you anymore! Once upon a time I thought there might be something between the two of us but now I'm beginning to wonder. One minute you're calling me pet names then I don't hear from you for long periods of time. What am I suppose to think? Am I a fill in for when you don't have someone in your life or is there a chance that you do have fillings for me but you just don't know how to show them. Either way I really wish I knew because I don't need my feelings played with. If you don't you know that it's ok, it's not like I'm going to spend my nights crying for you or my days dreaming about you. Just tell me if you plan on staying or going.

Numb

I have no idea how I feel right now there are so many emotions flowing through my body! There is a lot of anger and grief. February of this year I posted "Letter to Elly" it was written to friend who died on the plane the crashed in Buffalo. Yesterday would have been Elly's 25th birthday that in itself is hard to handle but tonight I go onto CNN.com to find an article about that very crash. The article states that the crash was due to pilot failure, turns out that not only did the pilot fail to preform regular safety procedures, but he also failed to mention that he failed some type of test 3 times instead of the 1 time he did mention. According to news article if the company would have known he failed 3 times instead of the 1 he never would have been put in the cockpit! So because of this mans self issues or whatever you want to call is 49+ people died, one of them being my best friend's childhood best friend. Like I said I don't even know what to feel!