Joined In One Voice

Two weeks ago a young girl in our community was accidentally shot in the head, for a week Hannah fought for her life! People all over the state of Florida came together to pray for her but than the story was picked up nationally and people across the country joined in prayer for one girl and her family! A facebook page was made to pray for her and over 5,000 people untied in one voice to ask God for healing for her self, her family, and those close to her! Last Saturday Hannah walked through Heaven's Gates and into the arms of Christ! Hannah while living touched so many lives, God used her accident to reach thousands, her father told us today that he received letters from five continents saying that they were praying! How Amazing!!

The untimely death of Hannah as taught me so much, unity among the Children of God is possible!! If people around the world can join together in prayer for one girl, how is it that we can not join together in prayer for so many other things? Prayer is so powerful, yes Hannah did pass away but her soul is healed, she is home and no longer in pain.

We as Christians need to be willing to set aside all our simple differences! It's time to be one in Christ so that we may reach out and save a lost and dying world!!

Truth Made Known

There's so much that I thought was dead and gone. Issues and hurts that I thought would never come to surface again because they were through but I thought wrong. Sure it's in the past but the lessons that I learned then have brought to light new ones to be learned. God is reveling so much to me these days which is a very good thing because now I can deal with stuff in the light of better days rather then the gloom of those past. Lesson 1 being learned: Not everyone is the same! What am I learning from that? While those that cut me apart in the past, the old friends that I had, they are not my new friends. The people I surround myself with now are people that love me and won't try to cut me up and use me for their own personal gain and interest! Lesson 2: My boyfriend now is none of those guys I've dated before. To them I was nothing more then a toy to be played with until they broke me. They said "I love you" and never really meant it, they cared more about what they could get from me rather then for me. Ben is different, he does love me and I'm more then a thing to him. For the first time in my life there is a Godly man that I can trust with my heart and my dreams! I thank God for him everyday and for those in my life now! Lesson 3: Not all churches are equal, a sad lesson, but one greatly needed to be learned! I am the church, not just a person to fill a seat. I have God given gifts and talents that are needed by others. What part of the church I am, leg, mouth, ear, I have yet to learn but there is a place for me there. I am also just as much a mission field as a mission worker!
As I'm going through my days these truths are being made known to me and I am so grateful for them. I still have a little ways to go before the old and wrong ideas that were so ingrained into my very being due to past hurts are gone but with each passing day the scares are being healed and I owe it all to God and those He's placed in my life.

Happy In These Days!

These days I wake to a smile on my face, a light shines in my eyes that has never been there before. True there are sometimes darks days but I can make it through them in a way I never could before. How can I put into words the new meaning my life has taken now that you have become more then you once were? There's joy when there use to be sadness and peace when there was loneliness. I feel like I belong, like I'm worth more then the price others put on my head. Now I know that I'm beautiful and that someone loves me for who I am and doesn't make me feel like a toy. I'm no longer something to be played with and tossed aside the minute I show a sign of weakness. My tears, when their seen, aren't something to just be ignored, you brush them away and hold me tight. You speak life into me instead of trying to take it away. To say the words I love you would never fully say how much you mean to me. You mean more to me then you may ever know. Until I can find the words I love you will have to do. I love you with all of my heart and with everything I am. I love you!

Time Passed

I'm looking at all the time that has passed since the dreams of my youth and there is much I'm beginning to realize. Many of those dreams remain unchanged, others still remain but their DNA has changed thanks to the tides of time, while others are nothing but ghost of forgotten daydreams long gone. It's strange that the structure of my life has changed little since the days of my childhood, but I myself have changed more then I imagined, or am I more like I was then I thought. Maybe the tone is the same just a different key. Is the life I'm meant to live passing me by? Did all the wrong turns, all the stops and starts put me on a parallel line? I know where I want to be in life and I think I know how to get there but every time I try to head out something breaks down and I'm left stranded before I even left. How do I travel the road of my life with no form of transportation? Can ton wings and broken legs still move the one is was meant to carry?

To Tell The Truth!

Honestly I don't know what to think about you anymore! Once upon a time I thought there might be something between the two of us but now I'm beginning to wonder. One minute you're calling me pet names then I don't hear from you for long periods of time. What am I suppose to think? Am I a fill in for when you don't have someone in your life or is there a chance that you do have fillings for me but you just don't know how to show them. Either way I really wish I knew because I don't need my feelings played with. If you don't you know that it's ok, it's not like I'm going to spend my nights crying for you or my days dreaming about you. Just tell me if you plan on staying or going.

Numb

I have no idea how I feel right now there are so many emotions flowing through my body! There is a lot of anger and grief. February of this year I posted "Letter to Elly" it was written to friend who died on the plane the crashed in Buffalo. Yesterday would have been Elly's 25th birthday that in itself is hard to handle but tonight I go onto CNN.com to find an article about that very crash. The article states that the crash was due to pilot failure, turns out that not only did the pilot fail to preform regular safety procedures, but he also failed to mention that he failed some type of test 3 times instead of the 1 time he did mention. According to news article if the company would have known he failed 3 times instead of the 1 he never would have been put in the cockpit! So because of this mans self issues or whatever you want to call is 49+ people died, one of them being my best friend's childhood best friend. Like I said I don't even know what to feel!

Is it a lie or truth?

A smile can hide a thousands pains just as the sands can hide a thousand treasures.